“You can tell so much about a person by the way they leave you”
— Redvers Bailey (via acidinyourmind)
happy birthday to the sadness that has been with me my whole life


I mourn you like the loss of this poem after it is finished.

When the subway came in, puddles darkening on my jacket

as they squelched beneath my rainboots, a man sitting near me

asked why I still loved you- I said you are the only thing

that has been with me my whole life. Twenty already.

In the hotel room the coffee maker gurgles like a hungry stomach

as someone in the next room makes a sound that could be

either fabulous sex, a dying breath, asthma, or all three.

You make me do things in hotels like sneak down to the laundry room

and steal old peoples’ underwear with unidentified stains,

or try to drown myself in the outside pool where children

in sagging bathing suits and dark tans think I’m just taking a breather.

On the worst days, when you wake up next to me

when all I want is to sleep alone, I cry at weddings and laugh at bombings.

I am so old. There are wrinkles in bones I didn’t even know existed,

when even windowpanes want to escape my presence.

On our shared birthday cake, you blow out every candle

I actually succeeded in lighting- to imagine a life without you

is almost as bad as imagining a life with you.

God, you always play on loop.

If only someone would press the stop button on the machine.

I finally understand why war veterans sleep with bullets

under their pillows: happy birthday, but if you came to me in a dream,

I would shoot you dead.

“Do it.
Get on the plane, get the train,
Walk 300 miles.
Get to her front door and tell her
“I know this is crazy
But I need you now.”
Our lives are too short to always be sensible,
Get the girl.
Distance makes no difference if your eyes light up when she laughs.”
— FRS.   (via xoaprox)


@harry_styles since we supported you through the greasy beethoven hair i think its time to drop a video jerking off with ya hair down…. or if that is too extreme i will be satisfied with a livestream where u do nothing but read bukowski in the tub wit some candles lit and your hair up thank u xx

Don't Let Me Go
Harry Styles


If ‘Don’t Let Me Go’ by Harry Styles was recorded in 2014

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